my story

Hi all, first time poster here.I guess I just felt the need to talk about my experience to others.I am 36 and after 3 failed attempts at marriage, I gave up.I want to have kids so badly, but I don't want to raise them in the wrong environment.I was so blessed when Korea allowed me to be the first, and it seems only, single foreign man to adopt.I have had a wonderful son for 8 years.But, he will go to university soon and I am not ready to have an empty nest.I have tried to adopt again multiple times, from multiple countries, but they make it near impossible if you are a single man.Then I was dating and Indian who mentioned that if I really wanted kids, I should do surrogacy.Sadly, that same date ended up cheating on me, then had the gull to ask me for help in finding a new job 6 months later.Anyway, the idea stuck with me and I started looking.This all happened a year and a half ago.I found a girl willing to do it for what I could afford in Thailand.I western unioned her some money to do the tests and for food and travel, over *** and then she just disappeared.Said she was going to visit her family and I never heard from her again.So, the very first girl ripped me off.Then I found another girl not long after.She was a Pakistani woman living in Thailand, who saw my add and agreed to do it, but then Thailand changed their laws and even though we were both foreign nationals, no clinic would do it.So, we both moved on.I found another girl in Vietnam that said she would do it.I flew down there twice for 2 insemination attempts.She wanted to do it with a home kit, so it was more "natural." Then we found out that her period was all over the place and so, we were missing her fertile days.She asked to stop because she got embarrassed.So, then I found the latest girl.So far, everything is working out okay.She is Filipina and really nice.I have met her several times.We have a clinic helping us and very soon, I will head off to do our second attempt with IUI.The doctor suggested I store my sperm if we have to try again, since the cost of flying around and paying for our hotel rooms and all her meals and travel and the clinic itself is getting burdensome.So far, it is costing me over *** is a lot of money for me.I have lived overseas for so long, working for low paying positions or no pay volunteer jobs so that I can help people, I just never built up that much money.I hope it works this time.People wonder how I am able to care for a baby, since I am single.Well, my son is a teenager and he finishes high school this year ( year early!) so he decided to spend the next year or 2 living with me to help care for his sibling.He is excited to have a sibling after so long.I hope it works out.I pray it works out.If not, then I will keep trying, like I have always done.I wish my family would help out, but while they are hopeful I will have anther child, they have no interest in helping to pay.They didn't pay for my son when I adopted him and they won't pay for surrogacy.I do all this on my own.Raised my son on my own, traveled the world on my own, paid for college on my own.But, I need someone to have my child...I can't do that alone.I am so thankful for finding the right woman to help me.Originally we were going to have a private surrogacy, where she would hand me the child at birth and step back, but I told her the baby will want to know her one day, which made her think and after a time, she decided she really did want to be more open.So, after she is pregnant, we will introduce our sons to each other and keep in touch over the years, so that they know we are really all just family, no matter the events to led to the childs creation.