Miranda, American Intended Parent in Marshall, Missouri, USA

Explain your reasons for wanting a surrogate/donor:

About Me: We are a Missouri couple happily married for 10 years. We have 3 girls that we thank God for every day ages 9,7 and 4. Almost 2 years ago we lost our only son during my 17th week if pregnancy. I went in for a D&C and developed DIC (causes your blood to stop clotting...also known as Death Is Coming) and hemorrhaged and nearly bled to death. The Drs were forced to do an emergency hysterectomy. So now I can never carry another child. BUT I was left with 1 ovary so GS is still an option, but I am not opposed to TS either. We had our hearts set on 4 children. Our son's ashes lie in an urn on my dresser and we know we can never replace him, but we still want one last child!! I am just so ready to give up, but I know my husband would rather have a child of our/his own than to adopt a newborn. But I'm tired of waiting and wishing for a baby...were not getting any younger. And I don't want my kids so far apart. We searched for a surrogate for a year and a half and finally gave up and moved into adoption. But we decided to give it one last shot! We had given up hope of finding a surrogate but am now wondering if that was the right decision?! It's just SO hard!! We were recently involved in a private newborns adoption that ended in heartbreak when the parents decided to keep him. So we lost a few thousand $ :( LOOKING for a GS OR TS with lower compensation expectations. Must be in Missouri or surrounding states. As we want to be involved in every aspect of the pregnancy!

How would you best describe yourself(s):

Determined, hard working, huge heart and always put others needs before my own., caring, compassionate, energetic, sarcastic.