There was a point in my life when I questioned this life goal. Do I really want this because other people also has this on their checklist or do I really want it for myself. Being a parent is tough and in my case, I can only imagine it will be tougher. I am single. Whether I like it or not, my parenting approach will be unconventional. There are a few factors that made me question this decision before and those doubts only to made it clearer to me now that I really want to be a father. I do not care the lengths sacrifices I need to make, I will make them. My child will be my family and we will do everything to raise them and give them a decent life.
I am always the person who constantly strives balance. I am half-party, half-pensive. I can say that because of that I developed some control issues. I always love to think of myself wise only to realize every now and then that I know nothing of this world so I must continue learning. I value family and honor more than anything in this world as what my family and experiences taught me through the years. I struggle everyday to be kinder, wiser, more forgiving and just.
One of my favorite writers once said: Sometimes people don’t understand the promises they’re making when they make them. It's true. No one can guarantee anyone's future and like it or not words are empty so I always see to it not to make promises I know I can keep and I only have one simple one. I cannot promise a very comfortable life for my child if ever I will be blessed enough with one in the future, but my promise is to never get tired of trying to give him the best life I could possibly give him/her. I cannot give all their wishes, but I promise to give them all my love and put their needs first before mine. I cannot promise that they will never be unhappy with the life I am going to give them while growing up, but I promise never to run out of understanding and patience even if it means I have to give up things I have been holding on so for too long. It will not be easy, I know but this is my ultimate dream and I need help to make it come true. P.S. “Sometimes people don’t understand the promises they’re making when they make them. But you keep the promise anyway. That’s what love is. Love is keeping the promise anyway. ― John Green, The Fault in Our Stars