Joelle, American Surrogate Mother in Spokane, Washington, USA

Why I want to be a surrogate mother:

I want to be a gestational surrogate mother, because I really want to make a difference and help someone in my life, and my tubes are tied because I hope to one day be a foster parent, but I had absolutely loved the feeling of being pregnant with my own 2 children. Being pregnant helped me feel alive, I can't picture what being pregnant with anthers baby would do as far as raising my self value.

Description of myself:

ॐ 27 year old Mother.Pro-life.Dreamer.Empath.Firefly.Stardust.Omnist.Awakening.Mystic.Gemini.Curvy. Weight: *** height: 5'4" *** body art: Tattoos fears: Abandonment education: Some college occupation: Stay at home mom I specifically look for intelligent minds.I DON'T do small talk. Anyways, about me- I'm 27 years old.I have a 8 year old daughter and a 5 year old son.I have 1 cat and 2 dogs.I'm an animal lover.Going through a divorce, but I have a boyfriend who lives with me.My tubes are tied, so my eggs cannot be accessed.Crawling my way out of a 8 year marriage, and finding myself and my own sense of purpose. I consider myself to hippish type.I rarely dress up or wear make-up.In person until I know someone fairy well, I can be quite anxious & shy. I grew up in Sacramento CA.I have lived in Spokane WA since *** so naturally now I'm opened minded with music, religions, lifestyles, beliefs, hobbies, cultures, and just people in general.I enjoy things like mildly selective gaming and watching movies, hiking, D&D, doing mushroom forays, writing, adult therapy coloring books, reading nonfiction, meditating, home remedies, cooking, pet sitting, loving the moon, getting tattoos, raising children, taking pampering baths, loving on my fur babies, traveling, listening to binaural beats, nature sounds, and wide variations in music, researching everything I can come across. I more specifically like reading and researching things on; earth's unsolved mysteries & beauty, the cosmos, various pagan paths (Shamanism, Wiccan, Hedgewitches, druids, Astrau, pantheist, and many much, although I don't label myself, I just consider myself exploring.) Anyways back to the things I like researching and reading on; spirituality, traditions, parenting, mythology, pinterest, alternative lifestyles, life-changing stories, mycology, animals, inner healing, mohawk Indian ancestors, recipes, wild herbs, quotes, documentaries, third eye awakening, chakra, holistic healing, music types, psychology, mental heath, ancient times, making remedies or crafts, and much more. I like to collect things like rocks, stones, herbs, incense, candles, hippie items, spiritual connecting items, books, essential oils, mythology replica, animal things, homemade items, earthy items, thrift store findings, unique items. I want to see your soul through your words.I seek souls, not faces.And if I'm interested in making your dream of having a baby come true, am all in.I'm the all or nothing type of girl.I respect all different lifestyles seeking to have fertility help.

My letter to intended parents:

Hello Intended Parents, We haven’t met, but we’re looking for each other already.We’re about to embark on a great adventure that will knit our lives together intimately, at least for a time, and we don’t even know each other’s names! To me, you are Intended Parent.To you, I am a Gestational Surrogate.What a strange way to begin such a relationship! Though I don’t yet know you, I am pretty sure that having to have me around wasn’t an original part of your family plans.I imagine your hopes and dreams have had to change and evolve much to lead you to this point.For that, I want you to know, that I think you’re incredibly courageous people and I admire your strength and resolve.I also want you to know that I understand what incredible trust you are placing in me, and I take that very seriously. Please be assured that I did not undertake this idea on a whim.It has come with the passage of time, the gathering of information, much discussion.While there has been a lot of focus on me throughout the process (my health, my thoughts, my fears, my family’s role, etc) I want you to know that we have never once lost track of you.You are why I am here! Without you, I wouldn’t be going on this journey.Thank you for giving me this gift of an incredible opportunity. I know you’ll probably wonder and worry a lot about me.How can you know if I am eating right, sleeping enough, being active but not too active? How can you be sure I am taking my prenatal vitamins, that I’m avoiding too much coffee, or that I won’t be exposed to something I shouldn’t be? Can you be sure that on delivery day, we’ll all be on the same page medically? Can you rest assured that I will carry your child with as much care as my own? How will you know that I will be as communicative as you’d want? The answer to all those questions is you can’t know and you can’t be sure, you just have to trust me.I will do the same for you.I will trust that you’ll understand my needs and my judgment, just as I will do for you. At the end of this adventure, I hope we can look back on the time where you were just IPs and I was just the surrogate and laugh because it seems so silly to have not always known and cared for one another. Here’s to our journey! Lets go on an adventure!